Your voice soothes me.

My heartbeat seems to slow and increase at the same time.

You move me. 

You muse me. 

You abuse me.

You tease me.

You make me believe that a part of you needs me.

Then you leave me.

You fill my head.

Then you bleed me.

Please just free me.

Free me.



We need a little u n i t WHY ?

Because you can see every face disgruntled and wry

We turn our heads to the sky

Palms touching, eyes closed

Begging God, “Please save us from all of our woes.”

Because only He knows

Which is why His son, he chose

To die so we can have the

Undeserved love that He shows

So can we get a little u n i t y ?

Can we all just sing along

To the same battle cry ?

Can we all recognize

The real, true bad guy ?

I mean can we at least all try

To be in u n i t y ?

Over October

you can’t wish this away 

he won’t whisk you away

he’s got a new lover

and she’s here to stay

come what may

i will constantly rue the day

october 22nd

on my heart it’ll always weigh

i try not to

isloate myself

i really don’t want to

internally decay

all i can do is pray

that in due time

i’ll be okay


So this is it. I stand at the window of my one bedroom apartment and stare at the bricks strategically placed that make the building across from me. After what felt like an eternity, I refocused my eyes to see my reflection. I almost don’t even recognize myself anymore. My blackened heart is shown through my eyes. The lines cover my skin like trails on a map, aging me quicker than normal. I dare not look lower. My breathing rapidly increases with panic. What if I never get out of this place ?


The hurting souls stay silent and smile with their eyes

Their hearts are wrenched with sorrow as their minds replay the lies

Each and every time I think of things a part of me just dies

Every day I think of giving up but I think about the prize

I keep everything bottled right but much to my demise

I read between the lines but I don’t like what it implies

I’m sorry, but I have to go. I know you hate good byes.

Jokes On Me

Her jokes and smiles don’t mean a thing

Are you guys even listening ?

She jokes of death and she smiles with tears

Her strength is pain and she’s buried with fears

She longs for love but she feels only hate

She stays upbeat as she contemplates

The funny thing is she showed all the signs

But they were ignored

Because you thought she was fine

She left you a note, just one last joke

“My life,” is all she wrote


Roses are red

The violets are dead

They’ve wilted from all

The things that I’ve said

Fire with fire

It has shortened my life

They say it won’t hurt

But it cuts like a knife

Zero one two three four

I promised I wouldn’t

Do this anymore

Five six seven eight

Say your goodbyes

Before it’s too late


I don’t know when love became so elusive.

Or was I too jaded to hear the thoughts so intrusive ?

Should I try to save us or should I chuck up the deuces ?

The thought of shaking you totally just feels so abusive.

But the foundation we’re built on just isn’t conducive…

For love.

In this relationship, there are no blessings from above.

There was a point in time I thought you fit me like a glove.

Man, you were just so seducive.

I mean seductive.

Part of me knows progressing any further would be counterproductive.

The only love we ever made was toxic and destructive.

With or without you my breathing is obstructed.

Sigh. F**k it.


I care for you still and I always will.

Wish summer was longer.

One too many I love yous got your heart sinking.

Mind over matter is magic.

Just don’t think about it.

It’ll be over in no time.
These four walls, they got me in prison.

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