Month: September 2018

Strange World

I meant to live a better life

And I almost did

But I kept building amongst the bushes

Where those got damned snakes hid

I meant to be integritous

Since I was a kid

But now it all makes sense

It’s not even a real word

So I did the devils bid

I planned on being happy

Planned to illuminate the world

I wanted to save humanity

Ever since I was a girl

But I didn’t know what I know now

I would’ve lived a different life

If I’d just known how

I keep on waiting

Contemplating

But nothing will ever change

We all know it’s wrong

But still go along

This earth is very strange

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Beautiful

It’s so unusual

That someone like you thinks I’m beautiful

You’re perfect from your carrot top

To your toe cuticles

And little ol’ me ?

I’m nothing for your eyes to behold

When you tell me I’m incredible

I say it’s the sweetest lie you’ve ever told

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EGD

Have you ever

Loved with a love

That was

More than ordinary

Did you fall in

The sky

Almost die

Feels kinda scary

Have you ever

Heard a heart

Sing

Was it lovely

Did you feel cuddly

Was that day

Everything

Will you ever

Love me back

Will my pluses

Trump the things

That I lack

Will I be happy

Until it all fades

To black

Will you ride

Or die

Be the Bonnie

To my Clyde

Always have my back

Have you ever

Had a dream

Did it come

True

Because I had a dream

And my dream

Was

You

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Game Time

Is this for attention ?

Will the drama ever end ?

This isn’t what I signed up for

When I decided to befriend

But hey, let’s play a game

We’ll call it “guess if this ones real”

The rules are simple, easy af

Look in your heart, search real deep

Then pull out how you feel

Wicked, dirty, worthless, shame

Fat and ugly too

What do you mean you don’t like this game ?

I created it just for you !

Alright where were we ?

Roll the dice, you landed at my wrist

So pick a knife or a tattoo

Think of the rewards and risks

One brings disappointment

But at least I’d be alive

“At least” makes it sound good

That sentence needs revised

Unfortunately my dear

I would still be here

Messing up your lives

This isn’t fun ?

But it’s just begun !

Besides, I do declare

I have a secret if you can keep it

And if you were unaware

This game, we’ve played informally

And it sort of never stops

Plenty of ways in but one way out

That out is when one of us drops

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Take This

i think i am worthless

i don’t have a purpose

none of this is worth it

since i was underage

i’ve been under the

influence of rage

i am alone, i am a misfit

beautiful girl

i was so gifted

fuck all this pain

time to get lifted

crush up the white

cut up the line

losing my mind

bumps through the night

i’m so jaded

and i hate it

so i stay faded

this is my free will

don’t tell me to chill

if i really want

i’ll just pop another pill

nothing feels real

back in ’91

my life had just begun

’99 summer

it’s just me and my brother

two thousand and eight

man everything was great

two thousand twelve summer

damn, now i’m someones mother

fast forward to this spring

i’m just sick of everything

so take this

basics

aced it

closed fist

ain’t shit

faithless

t

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Flicker

Baby girl you’re a flame

And if you knew what I knew

You wouldn’t be moving the same

Fragile and fleeting

Your ego depleting

But you never give up

Every goal you’re completing

It’s hard and it hurts

But just do it in spurts

Baby steps got us to the moon

So don’t expect rewards soon

But the longer you wait

The reward, man it’s great

Some call it luck, some call it fate

But it was your own ambition

That put that food on your plate

The haters they’ll blow

And they might blow you out

But with time your flame gets bigger

And you’ll stay lit no doubt

And then one day you’ll be blinding

And the blows will fuel your fire

Then you’ll be so big and strong

Alone you’ll protect your whole empire

So baby girl stay lit, keep shining, don’t flop

You can do anything in life

As long as you don’t stop

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Nope

Tears of acid bleed from my eyes

Silent sulphur, how dare I cry

I’ve come to expect such great heights

Fantasies and dreams, lonely sighs

Oh boy, oh boy. How I miss the days

Before the pot and razor blades

The water fights and the sun rays

Before I wished this great escape

This heart of mine it barely beats

Too many tricks, too little treats

The things you’ve said, my mind repeats

Pray for apathy, feelings deplete

I know you’re worried to see the red

But if I don’t I’ll soon be dead

I cannot bear the constant dread

The words of hate inside my head

I only wish to drown the sound

To survive the day until the sun goes down

There I lie in my truest form

Façade is gone, this is my norm

Depressed, depressed and never blessed

Trying to smile but much too stressed

On days like this I miss the rain

Go to sleep, wake up. It starts again.

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